A Partnership Not Realationship

Hey Readers,

So love seems to haunt me once again,  always I seem to get close to crossing the line be done with her but it always seems to come back and I don't know what to do. I sit here as life flashes by me, I am trying to figure what's the point in falling in love? What purpose does it serve? What do I get besides the sexual pleasures of life? I don't care for that I want something, no SOMEONE real. I want real love. I have lived life not long, I have a lot of time to find it but do I want to spend all that time looking for it no! I don't want to be 30 still single and childless or single with child(ren). I pace the floor of my house contemplating what does love mean? what does it look like? what does it feel like? I don't know because it seems when i get close something has to go and fuck me in the ass and I am stuck alone yet again and then it is hard to bear when I see them talk to them because all I want to do is just tell them how much they mean to me and how I feel for them. I would marry this girl in a instantly, will all things fucked up, all things going on with her no matter what. Right now there is only one other girl I am really interested but I don't think she is interested partially because she is interested in another guy I can hope but I do not if I should pursue. She is a amazing girl, beauty to match a goddess, funny, and just all around great. Yet as I ponder I start to think, Am I good for this girl? Now not many tend to think that, at least not that any guys I think of. I am not look for sex nor am I looking for a part time love, I want a full fledge not relationship I don't believe in them I want a PARTNERSHIP. Too many times have I been told by girls that I need to do something to, that I need to reframe from things, to keep us in a good position, this is wrong! LOVE IS A TWO PERSON JOB! Not relying on one of you to do something because your too weak to do it yourself or lazy either way, YOU NEED TO WORK TOGETHER!!! That's why there is so much divorce in the world because there is too much argue depending one to do things. To have a family you need to act like one Teamwork! if you got that honesty, faithfulness, and respect for each then you will be good to go. NO MORE ONE-MAN PARTNERSHIPS! OR RELATIONSHIPS!!!