Love., Yet Again

Hello True Streamers,

So as I sit here and ponder, I begin to think about events in my day things to talk about things to think about things to act about, and one of things that happened to day was my depression hit me today like a clown with rubber chicken very randomly, and I started thinking about my ex and how she has been acting lately, and honestly it pains me to see and I really honestly don't want to know but, at the same time I do want to know because I love her, because I care about her and I want to know what's going on in her life but at the same time whats going on in her life causes pain in my heart. Have you ever felt that? See someone pretty much screw their life over because they have the freedom to do so? Isn't it just plain sad and heartbreaking? For me is it, and this girl met the world to me, she was my other half in my opinion, but once we broke up or a certain time in our "relationship" she changed into this person who is absolutely repulsive into the exact thing in which I am against in every way, but does that keep me from loving her? No, it does not. Does it keep me from wanting her? Unfortunately not. you see love is more than some feeling it involves the way you treat and act towards each other. If there is no respect and just plain criticism then there is no love. Sadly to say, love can be a one-sided thing, it is possible for only one person to be in love in a relationship, sadly I have fallen prey to this crime, it is a shame to anyone that actually is a victim of this, if you have, I am greatly sorry and I know how you feel. To quote one of my favorite films, " The Greatest Thing You'll Ever Learn, Is To Love, And Be Loved In Return". This is from a movie called "Moulin Rouge" In my opinion one of the greatest films of all time, but in my whole life the only women to truly and honest love me in return was my ex in 2010. No one else has shown me true love and if they think they have, they don't know what love is. But enough about that, well sorta really I am still going to continue the subject but not so much about me. A girl who is actually worth your time will not lie too you, will not keep emotions from you, will tell you things even tho it may hurt, and most of all RESPECT YOU! and this also goes for women as well when a "man" does these thing say away, He isn't in love with you, he is only out to get something for his best interest. Love is a hard thing to find, I have found it once in my life, I don't know if I will ever find it again. I will be happy if I do somedaym, I have alot of respect towards that girl who truly loved me. And I always will. Be careful where you lay your heart, it's all you got.

Good Night True Streamer,
Scott